Hey, it’s Ali. It’s been a while since I’ve posted, but something has happened that I just have to share with all of you. But before I share my exciting news, I have prayer requests.
Please say some extra prayers for: Jeremy Wilson
(www.caringbridge.org/visit/
jeremywilson),
the Adamsky Family
(www.caringbridge.org/visit/
zackaryadamsky),
and my friend Carrie Maniscalco
(www.caringbridge.org/visit/
carriemaniscalco ).
And if you have any spare prayers left after praying hard for these amazing people, if you could throw one or two my dad’s way, I’m sure he’d appreciate it. My dad’s feeling a little under the weather, and unfortunately we know it could be a lot worse (which is why I’m only asking if you have spare ones…the most urgent prayers go to the awesome kids first), so I know he won’t mention it on here. But a little extra prayers couldn’t hurt him, if you have any…
jeremywilsonzackaryadamsky
Now to the exciting news…
Last night I had a Chemistry lab from 7-8:45 pm and since it was late, dark and I’m lazy (there, Mom & Dad, I admit it…) when I got out of lab, I decided to take the bus back to my dorm. So, I was waiting at the bus stop and realizing that if I had walked, I’d already be back to my dorm by now. The bus was still nowhere in sight. I decided to talk to Andrew. I leaned against the wall and looked up to the sky; it was completely black. I couldn’t see anything. I told Andrew how much I miss him. I told him how I hope he knows how much I love him and that I hope he doesn’t think I forgot him, because that’s impossible. Of course I started to cry, which was embarrassing because I was standing on a sidewalk in the middle of campus with people walking by and there I was, crying!? I told Andrew I need a sign to know that he’s ok. I told him how sorry I was that he had to go through all of what he went through and that I’d do anything to take his place then and now. All of a sudden, out of a nowhere, 1 lone star showed up in the sky. Obviously, I started crying more! Finally, the bus came. When I got on the bus the radio was on, but it was just an advertisement for something, I didn’t really pay attention to it. I was in shock of what had just happened! Next thing I know, the advertisement is over and the song “Better in Time” by Leona Lewis started to play. Now, I’ve heard this song before, but this time, as weird as it may sound, I felt like it was a message…One part in particular stood out to me. It said, “Thought I couldn’t live without you; it’s gunna hurt when it heals too; it’ll all get better in time. Even though I really love you, I’m gunna smile cause I deserve to; it’ll all get better in time.” Yup, you guessed it…I started crying. Then, that song ended and I thought to myself, ‘Wow, Andrew. After all this time, the first time I get a sign from you, it’s amazing! You outdid yourself.’ Oh no, Ali. Don’t be silly. He’s not done. The next song started playing and it was a song called “Just Stand Up” by Carrie Underwood, Miley Cyrus, Beyoncé, Rihanna, Mary J. Blige, Melissa Etheridge, Mariah Carey, Ashanti, Fergie, Natasha Bedingfield, Keyshia Cole, Ciara, Leona Lewis, LeAnn Rimes, and Sheryl Crow. Again, I felt like it was a sign. “Just Stand Up” is a song that all of the amazing singers above sang in a fundraiser to stand up to cancer. (Here’s a video of them singing this song…I love it. “Just Stand Up”
) The reason I felt like this was a message to me is because, as some of you may know, the transition to college for me has been difficult and I’m very stressed, but again, I realize that it could be worse. I feel like my transition is different than everyone else’s…I’m kindof jealous of them, in a way, for just being able to ease right into it. Family is so important to me, and my family is so close, that at a time like this when I have to leave, it makes it more difficult. I don’t like not living at home. I feel like I shouldn’t have left my house yet…my parents aren’t supposed to be “empty-nesters”. There’s still supposed to be another kid running around the house…I miss going to Andrew’s games after school. I miss family dinners for 4 (& 3 now…). I miss the simplest things that are often taken for granted. I just miss seeing him; pictures just don’t do him justice. In “Just Stand Up” they say “
Don’t give up THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!” As lame (or not) as it may seem, I feel like Andrew was telling me “don’t give up,” as if to say, “you can get through this, Ali. I know you can.”
Since July 14, 2007, I’ve been praying for a sign from Andrew. He’s been in a few of my dreams, but nothing like this has happened before…it was amazing. I’m still in shock! It’s the weirdest feeling…it’s so exciting, but then painful that he’s still not physically here…I don’t know how to explain it. I told my mom last night and as I told her I realized, maybe this is my birthday present from him! I mentioned that to my mom and she said, “I think you’re right. Andrew never could wait until the actual day (since the actual day’s Monday).” J
So, thank you, Andrew, for the best birthday present EVER. I am never, ever going to forget this one. You still give the best gifts! As always, you set the bar high…
As I told you last night, I love you so much, Andrew. You mean the world to me, best friend. Now I know for sure, you’re helping me to get through this…I won’t let you down.
CaringBridge family – please don’t forget the prayer requests at the top of this entry. Thank you for always being here for my family. Sometimes, your guestbook entries are just what we need. Thank you for helping to keep my best friend’s memory alive.
As hard as it may be sometimes, try to B+ always!
